To Her... For Everything by dreambeast1428, literature
Literature
To Her... For Everything
To Her… For Everything
For the times you've made me laugh when I felt like crying,
Every time you smile, I find myself trying,
Harder and harder to seek your saving mind,
I've felt so dumb, and I've felt so blind,
But I feel I've grown and partially because of you,
For so lone you've been the one I look to,
For you I would do anything, if I could I would erase the past,
Take it to a time when we had a blast,
Simplicity and so complex the words to describe,
I don't know, being around you gives me this vibe,
We should be together but that's just me,
Just wish I could see things the way you see,
For you I would do anything, sacrific
It was said, we'd be together on this day,
Meant so much to me, I didn't have a thing to say,
It's all over now, what happened to the promise?
Stick to your words, its what you said,
now that I think of it, your just a bitch fucked up in your head,
I feel like you lied to me all that time,
No chance to back track or rewind,
I look back and want this all to change, but hey,
Looks like December 31st began my dying days,
Today is my day, our day, the day of love,
Now I look at you face down on the floor and me with my bloody gloves,
Life was so bright but now its back to pitch black,
You didn't think about that when the knife went in
The Night We Got Engaged by dreambeast1428, literature
Literature
The Night We Got Engaged
Ring around the rosy, pocket full of poesy,
Hands together and our cheeks were rosy,
To me you're the perfect dream,
Remember when we ran around the park, I heard you scream,
We ran on the baseball field, me chasing you,
I saw you watching me, and watching you was all I could do,
I watched you swing, your hair glowing in the night air,
I tried not to, but I couldn't help but stare,
You looked like an angel with that smile on your face,
I see things differently, to me I'm the jack, and you're the ace,
You see that's 21, the winning combination,
You shine brighter then any stare on this nation,
Now some may wonder why I call myself
I remember it like yesterday,
Two kids huddled together under the rain,
Basketball court laying deep in the background,
I remember her gasp as the only sound,
I asked her to be mine, my hand on the ring,
I could see in her eyes she wanted to sing,
She said yes and its brought us together,
Watching her eyes as I put it on her finger made everything better,
That same night when I got home, I wrote her the biggest love letter,
She doesn't know of it, but I bet she will,
Felt so guilty when she had to foot the bill,
It made me cry at night thinking I was less then a man,
I love her so much, sometimes more then I could stand,
I have a
[Brother]
So blind to see whats going wrong,
Not aloud to listen to your favorite songs,
So afraid to speak your mind,
Afraid that in her mind it will be a crime,
Now your a fighting slave,
Hiding away in your little cave,
Talking to no one, not speaking your mind,
No one will blame you,
No one will punish,
We would be there through it all,
Helping you out, just give us a call,
You need to get your life back,
Do it soon, or you'll forever be lost,
It's not with this, not at any cost,
You are my brother, my friend,
But with her, all you have is a sadistic grin,
You've grown so distant,
The timing so instant,
Wake up my broth
[War of One]
Pained enemy, why can't you see,
These things they should not be,
War, inside my mind, I've done my time,
Lost within crime, this struggle can not bind,
I'm lost, in the, War of One,
I'm lost, in the, War of One
War of One,
Fuck your chosen one,
Kill you just for fun,
I'm lost, in the, War of One
Life, negative,
Its so hard to live,
I have no life to give,
I'm lost, in the, War of One
I, can't the fight the pain,
This pain it keeps me sane,
War of One!
[Suicidal Skum]
Fighting my time, fighting my time,
Losing my mind, losing my mind,
Fighting my time, losing my mind,
Looking for death that I can find,
Suicidal Skum,
Just a homeless bum,
Homicidal Man,
Roams the forgotten land,
Suicidal Skum,
Hiding behing a loaded gun,
He's fighting his time,
He's losing his mind,
Killing himself by a jagged vine,
Suicidal Skum,
Just a homeless bum,
Homicidal Man,
Roams the forgotten land,
Suicidal Skum,
Hiding behing a loaded gun
[Nothing's Good]
Can't see the light of day,
Saying these words I can not say,
Open my eyes so I can pay,
This debt that I repay,
I see the pain I've caused,
Put my problems on pause,
Putting others before myself,
Putting me onto a shelf,
This pain I feel inside,
Many thoughts in my mind,
These things I can't control,
My life turned into a hellhole,
Can't see the light of day,
Saying these words I can not say,
Open my eyes so I can pay,
This debt that I repay,
I sense that nothings good,
Never thought anything could,
I am lost within my self,
And now my life begins to melt,
I sense that nothings good,
Nothings good,
Not
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So almost in every journal, well its only been two, I've mentioned how I was depressed.
Well I want to mention the fact that now I look at depression as a cry, although I know its common, the point is, I don't want to be in that place anymore. I've seem to have gotten my life on track, I want to go to school, make something of myself and really make people proud.
I dont know what else to say, so just have some fun.
Its been almost a year since I did one of this journal things. A lot of things have happened, I'm looking for more ideas to work with on here but my mind seems like I have put it on pause or something.
I feel depressed almost everyday, but I don't let it stop me, I look for the good in everything, even if its a torturious subject.
I feel I have grown emmensly.
Thanks to anyone who views my page, I appreciate it, and there should be more to come.
I feel so alone at this time, don't think any thing around me really matters. I feel for this girl but I fail to get with her, she cares for me back but stupid things are holding us back.
I don't really care for anyone else, im just a lone person lost in his own little world of deciet and anger...
I write, nothing turns out well, I do graphics, nothing turns out well, its almost like my own personal curse. Theres no one that I can talk to about this other than myself...
...GoNe...